The Day My Heart was Broken - Part One

My husband and I have 3 children, but the one in the middle has a very special story - a story that has deeply affected and bled into the lives of everyone in our family, extended family, and our close friends. Through Daniel's young life, he has experienced some very "close calls." When he was 4, Daniel came extremely close to being hit by a fast-moving car. When he was about 5, he was playing in his room. There was a light fixture on the ceiling with no light bulb in it at the time because the bulb had just burned out. He was playing with a tent pole from a little play tent he and Elijah had gotten as a gift. He managed to stick the metal pole directly into the light fixture. I was downstairs, and heard a sound like an electrical surge. In absolute panic, I ran upstairs, and Daniel was crying from fright. There was a burned, smoking circle on the carpet from a bolt of electricity. The pole spanned EXACTLY the distance from the fixture to the ground. So the electricity flow bypassed little Daniel and went directly into the ground via the pole and not Daniel's body. It's as if, to my understanding, God had specifically protected Daniel, while at the same time, the enemy had specifically tried to destroy him.

When Daniel was 6, he started complaining of pain in the back of his neck. The pain and the complaining always came in the morning after he had woken up from sleep. Neither Wes nor I thought much of it at first. But day by day, the pain was getting worse and more frequent. After a few weeks, it started bothering him during the day and in the middle of the night. So, we took him to his pediatrician, fully thinking he had strained it somehow. His doctor ordered an x-ray, which did reveal a slight curvature in that part of the spine, but no apparent injury or anything unusual. Essentially, he told us that there was nothing wrong besides possibly a strain, and to keep giving him Ibuprofen - hopefully, the pain would resolve itself. But after a few days, the pain had only grown worse. So, we called his doctor back. The doctor didn't take us too seriously. But Wes and I were more concerned than ever, and Wes demanded, in tears of frustration, that we be given a referral to a specialist.

We got the referral to see a spine specialist in Tualatin - Dr. Timothy Keenan, on Friday, October 19th, 2001, . I brought Daniel to the appointment by myself. It was a beautiful, sunny fall day - driving up together, Daniel and I were enjoying the day, listening to music and feeling pretty carefree. The specialist examined Daniel and couldn't see anything out of the ordinary. But because Daniel was experiencing so much pain, he decided to order an MRI. He told me not to worry - the purpose of the MRI was just to rule out anything serious.

The doctor let me use the phone so I could call Wes and let him know what was going on. Wes said he'd meet me at the hospital after he got off work. At Emmanuel Hospital, the MRI staff told me Daniel would have to be anesthetized, but the MRI would take only about 45 minutes. Daniel was given a regular hospital room, so I was told to wait in there, and they'd call me after he'd woken up from the anesthesia.

Wes arrived quite awhile after I'd said goodbye to Daniel in the MRI department. When he walked in, I told him that I was a bit confused because I thought they had told me the MRI would take just a short while. And yet, Daniel had been gone for at least 2 hours. We sat there together and watched TV, since there was nothing else to do. During one of the shows, we saw an interview of Lisa Beamer, the wife of Todd Beamer. This was right after 9-11, and he was one of the passengers who took down the terrorists in the plane that eventually crashed in a Pennsylvania field. Lisa Beamer told her story of shock and grief upon hearing that her husband had died. Yet, I was so struck by her dignity. The interviewer asked her how she was handling everything. She said with confidence and poise, that her relationship with Jesus was sustaining her and bringing her comfort. She expressed how thankful she was that Todd had a saving relationship with Jesus, that he was in heaven, and how excited she was to meet him there one day. I bring this up, because, while listening to this interview, my mind, for the first time entertained the notion that something might be very wrong with Daniel. I hadn't even allowed myself to think that thought, until this point. But her testimony in the midst of these new, frightening thoughts, gave me tremendous courage. I remember vividly thinking to myself that if something did happen to Daniel, I had the same God Lisa Beamer had - the same God who brings comfort and peace and hope. As he sustained her, he would sustain me, no matter what we might have to face or endure.